Force fed everytime.My tongue everytime.Why are the words nonsense?
Sunday, March 23, 2008
IT'S ALIVE!
Holy shit! I can't believe that this blog is still alive. I guess I never deleted it so here it is, just hangin' out. So, the reason I searched long and hard to find this thing is because I was reading some stuff I saved on my computer from way the hella long time ago. When I was all depressed and whatever. Those were some trying times. In retrospect, I was insane. haha Well it's not that I was insane, it's just that I was almost gullible and not in a good situation. I aparently hated myself, was confused and lost all the time, and really depressed. Well, honestly I do remember it, but not completely until I read those entrees. I bet some of them are still on here, not that I want to spend 3 hours of my day just to do that.
But anyway, I think I might start writing again. It's good to get shit off your chest etc. I could use an outlet for my frustrations. Like for example, the amount of work I have to do. Right now I have a C&I paper, C&I group project, C&I paper on observations, a Geo test, Music History paper, and practicing for my recital to work on. Phew. How daunting. And I'm so lazy and slow. I hate doing homework and when I think about all the things I have to do I get discouraged and upset, so I don't do anything. Like right now, It's sunday and it's almost 1pm and I've done nothing except recover from a hangover.
On the upside of all this, I had a good night last night. I went to Brewhas with Pat and some of his friend and actually had a really good time. Maybe I threw back a few too many, but it was fun. AND I haven't spent the money that I aim to save. Since I give lessons, I get some mad cash and usually end up spending it. I have saved the amount I wanted to this week!! And I've decided to put it in an empty kleenex box so that I can't see it and count it every time. haha
"You say you read me like a book but the pages are all torn and frayed"
"Sometimes all I really wanna feel is love, sometimes I'm angry that I feel so angry. Sometimes my feelings get in the way, of what I feel I really needed to say"
"We're just blind pilots, in strange planes. Back seat drivers, in dead cars"
"Counting bodies like sheep (go back to sleep) to the rhythm of the war drums
"
"I wake up and think dreams are real,
I sleep so I don't have to feel"
"I'm just tired of counting bodies, is this mausoleum tardy? Let's just paint you a pretty face"
"You are no good. Cause I know you can`t sleep, til you know your overbearance makes me creep"
"Your the good things. Yeah thats you, yeah thats you, yeah.
"No matter what we say, no matter what we think, we will never, will never leave this room. What are we going to do about this?"
"When I go forwards, you go backwards, somewhere we will meet"
"Tell all the boys and girls from school, to keep breaking all the rules, to let their parents know their anger"
"Squirming through cuts in a throat. Cut it! Cut it!"
"Cut out my eyes to spite my heart, wish for sleep but never stopping, assignments pile up. "
"Any fool can easy pick a hole. I only wish I could fall in"
"Never leave
me paralyzed, love. Leave me hypnotized, love."
"Dancing on the corpses' ashes"
"Here I am expecting just a little bit, too much from the wounded. But I see through it all and see you."
"Now we're all the terminal cases, but were so determined to thrive. And those with defeat on their faces,
are those that we must keep alive"
"Chemicals will hit you. Chemicals will knock you down"
"Gaze into her killing jar I'd sometimes stare for hours. She even poked the holes so I can breath."
"So I threw you the obvious, to see what occurs behind the eyes of a fallen angel, eyes of a tragedy. Oh well. Apparently nothing. You don't see me. You don't see me at all."
"Do you remember that when we met you told me this gets harder, well it did."
"I'm gonna go to sleep
Let this wash all over me"
"A million nights in my silent room. I wanna learn all the right words I never knew. The saddest things I put you through. I got to hold you soon I'm asking you."
"Without you, everything falls apart. Without you, it's not as much fun to pick up the pieces."
"I'm comfortable apart, it's all written on my chart, and I take what's given me most cooperatively. I do what people say and lie in bed all day, absolutely horrified, I hope you're satisfied."
"She ate me up for breakfast, she screwed me in a vice. But now I don't know why I feel so tongue-tied"
90 Day Men A Perfect Circle Alkaline Trio Anathallo Armor For Sleep At The Drive-In Audiovent Barry Manilow Bear vs Shark Blink-182 [the newer cd] Brand New The Bravery Brazil Bright Eyes Broken Social Scene Cake Cave In Coheed and Cambria Coldplay John Coltrane Cursive Miles Davis Deftones Dream Theater Dresden Dolls Duke Ellington The Early November Elliot Smith The Faint Fog From Autumn to Ashes Further Seems Forever Gerry Mulligan Gladiator soundtrack Glassjaw Godspeed You Black Emperor Goo Goo Dolls Heartland Jazz Orchestra David Holsinger Gustav Holst Incubus Interpol The Junior Varsity Ken Burns Jazz Kenna Kenny Garrett Theodore Kerkezos The Killers Luca Brasi Mars Volta Modest Mouse Mr.Bungle Mum Murder By Death Muse My Chemical Romance Nine Inch Nails Norah Jones The Notwist Oasis Offspring (old) Opeth OSI Perfect Circle Pinback Psapp Q And Not U Radiohead Sahara Hotnights Sevendust Sėgur Ros Smashing Pumpkins Spoon The Stills The Strokes Taking Back Sunday>br>Tenacious D Thrice Thursday Tool Tori Amos The Unicorns Yeah Yeah Yeahs
"Listen, strange women lying in ponds distributing swords is no basis for a system of government. Supreme executive power derives from a mandate from the masses, not from some farcical aquatic ceremony." ~Monty Python and The Holy Grail
"This is the one thing we must not say. A man who was merely a man and said the sort of things Jesus said would not be a great moral teacher. He would either be a lunatic-on a level with the man who says he is a poached egg-or else he would be the Devil of Hell. You must make your choice. Either this man was, and is, the Son of God: or else a madman or something worse. ~ C.S. Lewis
Gigging Proverb: The more you drink, the less we stink!!
"If you want to keep a friend, never criticize his family, religion, politics, or intonation."