I'm gonna go to sleep. Let this wash all over me.

Force fed everytime.My tongue everytime.Why are the words nonsense?



Sunday, August 24, 2008
August

I swear, I feel like I'm in high school again.  Parents yelling at me?  That is sooooo teenage years.  Well, it still makes me feel like I'm a teenager.  Getting all moody and depressed.  Thats probably why I came to this blog thing.  Remind me of the not so great times, high school.  Don't get me wrong, I did love high school but I was so damn depressed most of the time.  I felt "so alone" and awkward.  I really did feel alone, really alone.  When you cry to yourself and have no-one to really open up to (except the person/people who made you cry of course).  Thats why it's good to have really awesome friends, or a guy who won't make you feel like shit (Patrick). 

An ex-boyfriend of mine got married this month.  I'm not sure what to think/feel.  I don't really care, but the reasons for his marriage are bogus.  He's changed since I've dated him and thats ok.  And I realized a long time ago it wouldn't have worked out anyways.

Someone near and dear to me asked me the other day, "so, when do you want to get married?"  Wah?  Wasn't sure if he was taking about us or in general.  I just kept saying "you've got to be kidding me, you didn't just ask me that" as we were walking to a friends place.  Looking back, what he really meant to say was "when in your life would be a good time for you to get married. What are your plans?"  Not, "when do you want to get married?"  It was kinda funny.  But kinda awesome.  I asked him, "married to you?"  And he said "well... yeah.":   Thats kinda awesome

(I'm glad this ended well)



Currently listening to:
Time Out
By The Dave Brubeck Quartet



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"Die young and save yourself"

"And she whispers into the mirror...(I'm broken)"

"You don't see me at all"

"We don't want the loonies taking over"

"You say you read me like a book but the pages are all torn and frayed"

"Sometimes all I really wanna feel is love, sometimes I'm angry that I feel so angry. Sometimes my feelings get in the way, of what I feel I really needed to say"

"We're just blind pilots, in strange planes. Back seat drivers, in dead cars"

"Counting bodies like sheep (go back to sleep) to the rhythm of the war drums "

"I wake up and think dreams are real, I sleep so I don't have to feel"

"I'm just tired of counting bodies, is this mausoleum tardy? Let's just paint you a pretty face"

"You are no good. Cause I know you can`t sleep, til you know your overbearance makes me creep"

"Your the good things. Yeah thats you, yeah thats you, yeah.

"No matter what we say, no matter what we think, we will never, will never leave this room. What are we going to do about this?"

"When I go forwards, you go backwards, somewhere we will meet"

"Tell all the boys and girls from school, to keep breaking all the rules, to let their parents know their anger"

"Squirming through cuts in a throat. Cut it! Cut it!"

"Cut out my eyes to spite my heart, wish for sleep but never stopping, assignments pile up. "

"Any fool can easy pick a hole. I only wish I could fall in"

"Never leave me paralyzed, love. Leave me hypnotized, love."

"Dancing on the corpses' ashes"

"Here I am expecting just a little bit, too much from the wounded. But I see through it all and see you."

"Now we're all the terminal cases, but were so determined to thrive. And those with defeat on their faces, are those that we must keep alive"

"Chemicals will hit you. Chemicals will knock you down"

"Gaze into her killing jar I'd sometimes stare for hours. She even poked the holes so I can breath."

"So I threw you the obvious, to see what occurs behind the eyes of a fallen angel, eyes of a tragedy. Oh well. Apparently nothing. You don't see me. You don't see me at all."

"Do you remember that when we met you told me this gets harder, well it did."

"I'm gonna go to sleep Let this wash all over me"

"A million nights in my silent room. I wanna learn all the right words I never knew. The saddest things I put you through. I got to hold you soon I'm asking you."

"Without you, everything falls apart. Without you, it's not as much fun to pick up the pieces."

"I'm comfortable apart, it's all written on my chart, and I take what's given me most cooperatively. I do what people say and lie in bed all day, absolutely horrified, I hope you're satisfied."

"She ate me up for breakfast, she screwed me in a vice. But now I don't know why I feel so tongue-tied"

   

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Stuff I like:

90 Day Men
A Perfect Circle
Alkaline Trio
Anathallo
Armor For Sleep
At The Drive-In
Audiovent
Barry Manilow
Bear vs Shark
Blink-182 [the newer cd]
Brand New
The Bravery
Brazil
Bright Eyes
Broken Social Scene
Cake
Cave In
Coheed and Cambria
Coldplay
John Coltrane
Cursive
Miles Davis
Deftones
Dream Theater
Dresden Dolls
Duke Ellington
The Early November
Elliot Smith
The Faint
Fog
From Autumn to Ashes
Further Seems Forever
Gerry Mulligan
Gladiator soundtrack
Glassjaw
Godspeed You Black Emperor
Goo Goo Dolls
Heartland Jazz Orchestra
David Holsinger
Gustav Holst
Incubus
Interpol
The Junior Varsity
Ken Burns Jazz
Kenna
Kenny Garrett
Theodore Kerkezos
The Killers
Luca Brasi
Mars Volta
Modest Mouse
Mr.Bungle
Mum
Murder By Death
Muse
My Chemical Romance
Nine Inch Nails
Norah Jones
The Notwist
Oasis
Offspring (old)
Opeth
OSI
Perfect Circle
Pinback
Psapp
Q And Not U
Radiohead
Sahara Hotnights
Sevendust
Sėgur Ros
Smashing Pumpkins
Spoon
The Stills
The Strokes
Taking Back Sunday>br>Tenacious D
Thrice
Thursday
Tool
Tori Amos
The Unicorns
Yeah Yeah Yeahs


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~Monty Python and The Holy Grail

"This is the one thing we must not say. A man who was merely a man and said the sort of things Jesus said would not be a great moral teacher. He would either be a lunatic-on a level with the man who says he is a poached egg-or else he would be the Devil of Hell. You must make your choice. Either this man was, and is, the Son of God: or else a madman or something worse.”
~ C.S. Lewis

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