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Saturday, June 12, 2004
Dancin on the corpses ashes.
Blah. Thats about it folks. I don't know what I'm doing, or why I feel how I feel... but maybe things will get better from here. I've hurt and I hurt. And my feelings are confusing as usual. I think that Bryan and I are just friends (so please stop harassing me about it), it will make things easier.
Well I'm going away for a week, miss me! :) I'll have fun though.. it will be nice to get away from all of the everyday crap. ya kno. I still havn't packed and I'm leaving tomorrow at 7am & I have work 2-6 and then cindys graduation party. oops. I took the ACT for the 2nd time this morning.. how stressful. Blak.
So yesterday the whole posse was @ Jills playing DDR, and we were all sweaty and such (+ it's really hot outside) so we wanted to go swimming, but everyone in Tinley that had pools had some kinda conflict not letting us go to their pool. So we went to Lansing to swim @ Bryans. & after an hour car ride (damn traffic), we were in his misquito infested yard swimming. Later some of his friends came over. Jeremy, Jason, Brett, Sam, & Noel. It was funny because Bryan and I knew all of them but they were like "who the hell are you?". I know Noel doesnt read this so i can talk about him if i want to. + I don't really care. I havn't seen him in.. a month, so it was sorta like "huh?" "what the...". Yar... dot dot dot.... dot..... dooooootttttt...... *makes farting nosie* stinky. :) hehe. I'm a dork. So anyways, i got the balls to talk to him. Thats my story lol. I left you in crazy anticipation didn't I. hehe.
So I really really want this computer in my room. I'm the only one that uses it, my brothers is in his room, and we have wireless connection. So poop. All I do is listen to music/DL music and talk to my friends. I don't like who-ever being able to come downstairs and stare over my shoulder.
... feelings.. nothing more than feelings... trying to forget my... feelings of HATE! Imagine... beating on your face... trying to forget my... feelings of HATE! hehe. thats actually some really old song of couse they say "love" instead of hate.. but in the Offspring song "Feelings", they changed it up a bit.
So... my phone just rang and I opened it and it just.. stopped. Ya, maybe someone hung up ... but it doesn't even say "1 missed call". hmm.
... dum de dum... I'm glad I'm going away... away from alll of this .. work.. scheduling lessons.. friends being mushy... boys. But you know what sucks? When I come back from this camp thingy... everythings just going to be thrown into motion. Marching band starts, I start giving lessons, I'll have more hours at work. Just poopy.
I hope I havn't turned into Ed Lesniak.. I think I said last night that I need someone cuz I get lonely. lol. I don't want to be one of those ppl that need a boyfriend. Cuz I'm not all pathetic and stuff... I think. Well, I'll just blame it on all of my friends having boyfriends. Well not all of them do.. but I'll blame it on them anyways. :)
Aren't these colors getting ugly? I was trying to do a shade of red, a shade of blue.. but it just got gross. Well.. so I'm gonna go cuz I got work soon (blah, hopfully it will cheer me up) and to stop tortuing you with these colors.
Thursday, June 10, 2004
In the song "I Am The Walrus" by the Beatles.. I thought they were saying coo-coo-cacho.. and i thought it was great because I've heard it in some other songs too (coheed?) but they aren't really saying coo-coo-cacho. it says goo-goo-gajoo. but same different, right? :)
I'm really glad I've matured... well.. I dont look like a kid anymore. I was looking through my photo albums because I was sorting pictures and such, and I looked at the oldest stuff I have.. which is 8th grade. And well... I look like crap. I'm glad I have some sort of style now. haha. [That reminds me.. I still need to put more pictures on here, I've got so many.]
So I'm entering fellow section leaders e-mail addresses into my address book in Hotmail.. and I remembered how irratating those email/SN are that are like ... cutiegirl1508 .. or flirtyeye4563.... or cutey things like clouds and all of that crap. And obvously... its not the guys.. and not the brass cuz they're all like trumpetgod85. hehehehe. Kidding! But in general.. thoes ppl/SN are so annoying. (I dont like girly girls) why don't they just put BlondeSlut69, or ImAnEasyWhore. lol, ok that was kinda mean.. but you get my point. Those aren't real sn, that i know of.. i'm just giving examples. They should make something nifty like.. SeaFoamGreen87 for example, cuz that color rocks ;)
So Kevin Brett decides to IM me outta no-where (i hope he doesnt mind i'm putin this in here):
My dream: my dream was weird too....i remember me and ed shooting a giant monkey with bananas from atop my house...which was a mountain-ish thing that you had to know how to do rock climbing to get to the top of....then I went to email Katie but I had to type from my neighbor's keyboard, which was in my neighbor's boat in his driveway but typed to my computer....then I found out the Blackhawks traded Chris Chelios and got mad so I stormed home and had to find my sister so i went out and found her with all these ghetto kids and she was doing cocaine and the cops came and we got arrested....then my alarm went off
hahahahahaha. what a crazy kid. speaking of crazy kids... bryan last night decides to pretend hes a girl online to this kid Josh that we all know. Well, i read the convo... and lets just say i'm distrubed. Its funny but.. *shudder*.
These chicks don't even know the name of my band
But they're all on me like they wanna hold hands
Cuz once I blow they know that i'll be the man
All because I'm the lead singer of my band
So... I don't like it when people think that have a right to be offended or pissed about what I do. If Bryan and I want to go off and talk because you dudes were playing some game that we didnt want to play... there shouldn't be a problem with that. We're friends. And if we were flirting.. so what? We know what we're doing.. and we don't have a problem with it so neither should you. Ok?
Especially when I drop the beat and do my acapellas
That song makes me laugh. I got bryan singing it, and my mom now (she just walked upstairs singing it real loud hehe) Expeciall this part. If you don't like rap (bryan*cough cough*), you should DL this anyways and see Eminem salsaing in pink tights. Its so great.
I'm the lead singer of my band, I get all the girl's to take off their underpants
And the lead singer of my band, my salsa
Makes all the pretty girl's wanna dance
My salsa, look out for my next single, it's called My Salsa...
My salsa, salsa, salsa, salsa, my salsa
Makes all the pretty girls wanna dance
And take off their underpants
My salsa makes all the pretty girls wanna dance
And take off their underpants, my salsa
I'm going to drop off money at Best Buy for Sara tonight so she can get me a discout on a Muse CD. (I'm actually thinking of buying all of my CDs now instead of DLin them like a crack addict) I want that CD. Absolution. Bryan actually pointed it out to me in Borders the other day.. Its so good. I'm excited. Oh, the new My Chemical Romance is really good. DL "You know what they do to guys like us in prison" cuz i really really like the beginning. also "To the end" is pretty good. i gotta listen to it more. :D I might be playing SC (Star Craft ;oP for brennas sake) tonight.. i'm excited :) cya later yos.
Tuesday, June 08, 2004
New "My Chemical Romance" Came Out Today (& I got it)
I'm bored... really bored... I think I might go rent like 5 movies and watch them.... or harass people and steal their movies because I'm poor.. or like to think I am... Hey, I'm doing the dot dot dot thing hehe. well its not the same ya kno.. but ne who. Today I went w/ cindy to Borders. yar! I like barnes & nobles better, but o well. i didnt buy ne thing so it dont matter. then I went to BW3's with sara, tom, jill & marina. woot. I miss tom, hes a good kid. we should hang out sometime. sara jill and I dressed up today so we look like we came from an Easter brunch or somethin heh. I wore a pink skirt. I know.. ah pink! So now I'm home.. being really bored... blah blah blah. hehe Yesterday we went to Gregs forever and played Magic, watched MTV2 for a while, ordered pizza, and played monopoly. I had my sax lesson 830-9am, so then i went to Olympic Star w/ bryan (i made him come out to eat breakfast w/ me and play magic hehe). so we were at gregs from like noon-10pm or somethin late like that. then to saras, then bryan and i took a walk that led us way out in a big circle, then we went home. So we're friends. So u ppl can stop harassing me! "i dont like people who cant make up their minds and in the process hurt others. that's not cool. i think if u like someone, go for it, you're young, you shouldnt have to think so much about this stuff." that was in jillys blog. :o( Well, its all over and done with now. so it will be all fine and dandy. Promise. So ne who... I work saturday... uh... oh ya. I'm leaving for Luther (a band/choir camp) for a week on Sunday. So I'm gonna be gone up in Iowa. long ride. hehe. Well this is even boring me.. so I'm gonna leave you with a note:
It is legal to protest naked in front of city hall as long as you are under seventeen years of age and have legal permits.
Dumb Laws
California... crazy peoples...
My Chemical Romance~
"He calls the mansion not a house but a tomb. He's always choking from the stench and the fume. The wedding party all collapsed in the room. So send my resignation to the bride and the groom. Let's go down! This elevator only goes up to ten. He's not around he's always looking at men. Down by the pool he doesn't have any friends. As they are. Face down and bloated snap a shot with the lens. If you marry me. Will you bury me? Will you carry me to the end? So say goodbye to the vows you take. and say goodbye to the life you make. And say goodbye to the heart you break. And all the cyanide you drank. She keeps a picture of the body she lends. Got nasty blisters from the money she spends. She got a life of her own and it shows by the benz she drives at 90 by the barbies and kens. If you ever say never too late. I'll forget all the diamonds you ate. Lost in coma and covered in cake. Increase the medication. Share the cows at the wake. If you marry me. Will you bury me? Will you carry me to the end? So say goodbye to the vows you take. and say goodbye to the life you make. And say goodbye to the heart you break. And all the cyanide you drank. Kiss the bride. So say goodbye to the vows you take. And say goodbye to the life you make. And say goodbye to the heart you break. And all the cyanide you drank. So say goodbye to the last parade. And walk away as the parties fade. And say goodnight to the heart you break and all the cytanide you drank. To the end." -To The End
"In the middle of a gunfight. In the center of a restaurant. They say. Come with your arms raised high. Well they're never gonna get me. Like a bullet through a flock a doves. To wage this war against your faith in me." -You Know What They Do To Guys Like Us In Prison
"Well if you wanted honesty that's all you had to say. I never want to let you down or have you go, It's better of this way. For all the dirty look. The photographs your boyfriend took. Remember when you broke you foot from jumping out the 2nd floor. I'm not okay. You wear me out." -I'm Not Okay (I promise)
"Gaze into her killing jar I'd sometimes stare for hours. She even poked the holes so I can breath." -The Jetset Life Is Gonna Kill You
"Climb out from the pine box well I'm asking you. Cuz she's got nothing to say. The angels just cut out her tongue. Call her black mariah. Would I lie to you? That girl's not right in the brain. Mass convulsions. Strike the choir. By the grace of God. Gun it while I'm holding on but. Don't stop. If I fall. And Don't look back. Don't stop bury me and fade to black. She won't stop me put it down." -Hang 'Em High
Interlude sounds like Radiohead a little. :)
Wednesday, June 02, 2004
You've Spent Your Life Losing Yourself And Now You're Marked As Used
- Murder By Death "I'm Afraid Of Who's Afraid Of Virginia Wolf"
Good song. I like good music. and good bands.
So right now.. I dont think I have ever seen so many people with their away messages on. it makes me sad. and they arent like "im out w/ my buddies" cuz otherwise i might call them (probably not cuz im tired and poor (give me your tired, your poor, your hungry) ). they have quotes or says they are doing stuff around the house or at work. how poopy.
Away Messages suck.
I'm cold.. and eating a bagle & drinking water. mm. banana nut.
Its June! And you know what that means? besides summer is here and school is out? Marching Band season starts!! yay!! So this week is section leader workshop, sorta. Its basically tuesday 1230-8pm & the PV freshies come in at 5. Wednesday 1230-8pm & we work with the grissom freshies 5-8. and tomorrow its 9am-8pm. lol. long day. I have to get a filling tomorrow at 830am. eww. last night i was bored so i called cindy over, we went for a drive ( and screamed songs really obnoxiously to passing cars.. or cars we passed ;oP ) then i slept over at her house. but it was basically, go to her house, pop a movie in, and me pass out lol. then i went home and slept some more in the morning. i was suppost to go to breakfast w/ bryan but I texted him saying im dead tired and yada. + i'm poor.
ne who. the PV freshies... well they werent any saxes. so we had all of the freshies come in today. We were sorta scared, but they are just goofy [like all saxes (o:], but they have respect. so its going to be a great season. they are good kids, i just hope they know how to play their horns. i think they wont have a hard time catching on to marching and all. :o)
well as for now.. im bored. and i made bryan talk to me lol. i dont know what im going to do for the night.. probably nothing. which i dont mind. i should finish my book or practice my horn. but you know, and i know.. i'll probably just talk to this kid or watch mindless TV.
Have a nice... uh.. day? Later yo's
nice colors ehh? I like. :)
Ok. Lyrics time! This is "I'm afraid of whos afraid of virgina wolfe" by Murder By Death (aka the title and stuff). It's weird.. cuz it goes like... well. i marked the two actull stanzas, or whatever. and the chorus. This song basically goes, #1, Chorus, #2, Chorus, #1, Chorus. how repetive. but I guess thats how most songs go. so *shrugs* Just in case u wanna DL it and sing along ;o)
1: Didn't mean to make you feel out of place
By the comments on your clothing or the makeup on your face
I didn't mean to preempt the chase
You're the drama queen of every scene perfectly out of place
Chorus: So you cry yourself to sleep on your blanket of snow
Your tiara of barbie doll heads and your arms crossed for a pillow
If you can't make up your mind just how different you should be
Reorganize your priorities to expect more sympathy
2: Only cynicism can get through to you
Expand the image up the insults negativism through and through
All of this pretending makes me feel a bit confused
You've spent your life losing yourself and now you're marked as used
Friday, May 28, 2004
Monday: I saw Troy with Sara, Greg, Marina, Jill & Brenna :D woo 4 getting out of the house! Then we got some food at Wendys and ate at Saras house. I left about 1130 & they stayed at saras to see LOTR: ROTK at midnight when it came out to buy lol. crazy kids. With school the next mornin ! hehe
Tuesday: I actully get to do stuff w/ my friends :D I went to Olympic Star [aka OS] with the old sax section leaders and the upcomming ones [me]. And they paid for us! :oD muhahaha. Then i went home and slept for about two hours cuz i ate a lot and felt like sleeping. I woke up around 515 by Sara calling me and telling me to meet my homies at BW3's (aka buffalo wild wings.. i have no idea why they call it that). So I went there and ate 20 chicken wings *uuuggghh* yet YUM! hehe Spicy stuff man.. my nose has been running & my head hurtin (im stuffed up 4 some reason) so I was sweatin' and my nose was running hehe. Gave a lesson 730-8. Then headed to Gregs with the clan to watch Super Troopers. Lets just say that Jill n' Peter had this 30min slap fight (really funny & fo'serious) and Greg n' Sara slept hehe. Then Jill and I ate all of Gregs yellow M&Ms hehehehe. Then Bryan kept hanging up on me cuz hes a jerk. Thats about it yall'. And this week I have finals until 1230 everyday and then im free :D sorta. lol
Wednesday: Jill and I went to Bryans to attack him. muhahaha. ( he didnt know we were coming) hehe. So he kicked us out after making cheezy potatoes cuz he had to sing (la la la) for his HS's graduation. then jill and I went biking on that path on 151st and Harlem. it was great stuff. She showed me this crazy trail in the woods and stuff. We got attacked by trees and mud hehe. Then we harased Greg and went to a old car show on harlem. Then we went to Brennas and played in her park. that was fun. got to beat things with bats... greg tried showing us karate moves.. jill and I tried giving eachother bruses (which worked, hehe, oww!) I think that was it
Thursday: Bryan and Jeremy (sp?) came out to TP yo! haha We chilled @ my house (jill was there too) for a while doing nothing.. we attacked brenna & the 4 of us & brenna, greg & sara farted around @ brennas. then i harassed cindy into hanging out w/ us. so Jill, Bryan, Jeremy, Cindy and I went running around in the woods that jill & i were in wednesday. hehehe I think we were all itchy and muddy and stuff. it was fun. :D
Friday, today: uh.. school. LAST DAY! WOO! I'm a SENIOR now! :D yahooey! I got out early cuz of stupid gym that i didnt go to :P Then I saw mean girls with cindy and jason. woo. and i got 3 IMs and one voice message durning the movie & my phone was on vibrate haha. so now i got graduation to play at. report is 5. so now im gonna burn CDs and stuff. *shrugs* my parents are out of town so PARTY! lol no.. j/j. i always get caught when i try to do something so no. lol
So I'm ungrounded now so you peoples can call me.. or whatever. Well .. whatever yall'... I'm outtie.
*drools* its like an iPod... yet so much cheaper. I want one. Its 30GB for $240, thats 500 hours. And an iPod is $400 for a 20 GB. crazy. I swear.. I'm getin me one of these by July. *drools*
Mp3 Player
Sunday, May 23, 2004
Relay & lack-there-of-of-hair
I have no hair! Actually I do.. but donated the rest to the American Cancer Society at relay for life last night. Relay rocked, as usual. Runnin around, it rainin too many times, we did a lot of going in and out, eatin all the food in the tent hehe, lets see.. harassing people, oh my knight in shining armor!! hahaha There was this kid that made armor out of duct tape! I took a picture with him *blushes* hehe. And the "Kiss me I'm swedish" kid that was pretty hot, hahaha. Jill was like "IM SWEDISH!!!" funnie stuff. Sara and Greg came at like 130 cuz they just came home from prom, and then they slept... those bums! So, my mom told me I look punk now.hahaha. I said sweet. :oP
So yesterday we got back to Matts house for some fooding at like 7am, but they didnt expect us until 8am, so we watched Office Space and crashed in his bacement. I was awake and didnt want to sleep, but i fell alseep so when they woke us up at 8am (we didnt really wake up lol) i felt like poop so i just went home. Some of em thought i was in trouble haha. Well I mostly went home to sleep cuz i had work at 2-6pm. I was like half-dead. hehe. Then i slacked around the house the rest of the day.. doing who knows what. Today I woke up really late (missing church )o: ) so now im just slackin until work at 6pm-close. bah. I bought some earings online though like 5 minutes ago :o). My gauges are gonna be massive, muhahaha.
Man, *yawn*, I'm still tired. I think im gonna go read or maybe do something like study for finals or practice my sax that i really should be doing. ugh. Well, im ungrounded monday (but really busy) but the rest of the week I'm FREE and i get out of school at like 1230 everyday(cuz i have blah finals)!!!!
Thursday, May 20, 2004
Ninjas & Pirates [tom, i swear i didnt copy you! hehe] Wednesday, May 19, 2004
Blue Slushies & Red Rover
So Monday night was Luther League [my church youth group] and it was "bring a friend night" [i didnt bring one :( hehe] and we played red rover [ie. title of blog]. When i got home I had to run to Brennas to get her the money for Relay For Life thats FRIDAY! WOO! So i wanted a slushie [ie. title of blog].. so I got one and i got one 4 Bren too. I got a blue shushie.. and it was sooo good :D Yay!
Tuesday was the choir concert. Since im grounded still [blah. only... 5 more days! ya!] I didnt feel like asking to go to B2 so I just had Cindy over. And for some reason I started talking about Ninjas.. and I told her that I know how to look like a ninja and make a cool mask-like thing. lol So I got a black shirt and attempted to remember.. but i failed horribly and ended up with a shirt strangly on my head all night. Until I remembered that i found it on some webpage that someone told me to go to. SO... I found it!!! ----------> How To Look Like A Ninja!!! You guys gotta go there.. so when we run around town like idiots.. WE CAN LOOK LIKE NINJAS!!! And do evil cool stuff! YEA! [hehe im a lil too excited] So anyways... I told Cindy that I'm gonna drive around wearing all black with this cool shirt on my face which will make me look like a scary awesomely cool NINJA! WAAA-HAA!!! [thats my ninja yell. hehe]
You wanna hear the dream I had last night? lol. Sure you do! hehe. Dont worry.. it wont bore you for too long. :D So I was on this train.. and ryan grill was laying down on the seat across from me.. sleeping. And I was jealous of him cuz he had so much room and I felt all congested for some reason.. even though i was siting alone. Then Ed lesniak came and sat next to me and was hittin on me and like touching my arm and stuf.. i dont know what he was saying cuz i was too busy glaring at ryan. Ed fell asleep next to me after a while. Then i got up to get something to drink. Thee End. lol. exciting aint it? Well its better than having dreams of ppl dying. I swear! Last week.. like.. Monday I had a dream where my brother and my dog died.. but they came back to life in the end somehow. Tuesday night, Jenny McKinney died [just like the cat did in Boondock Saints], then I think wednesday night it was sara, then thursday night it was my dad. I didnt wake up all panicy or anything.. i was just like.. Oh. ok... that sucks. I'm so odd. haha. Speaking of Ed.. so I told him i though this punk kid in our school is hot that happens to be in his 2nd hour, Kevin i think his name is, so tonight when i was talking to him online hes like "how the boyfriend" and im like.. ed your dumb, u know i dont have a BF. but i 4got that he keeps calling his kid my BF cuz i said that hes hott once. lol. Gah, Im listening to some songs I DLed and I's got some Mae on.. and its too happy for me! lol
So now what to talk about... hmm.. Oh. so we got our autograph thingys for our year books, so were all signing eachothers. I actully hate signing em' but if i write something Heather-like.. its not so bad. :oP hehe I CANT WAIT UNTIL SCHOOL IS OUT. School is SOO pointless right now... I mean... we arent doing anything in my classes the rest of this week.. its soo friggin boring. Gah! Well... it gives me time to read my Stephen King [goood stevey king.. :) ] Except next week is finals. blak. but its not that bad.. cuz each day i have a slacker final & a real one. And we get out at like 130.. and i'm ungrounded monday!! Woo!
So Relay for Life is this Friday. Im really excited! They have this thing set up where u can donate your hair to the kids that have cancer that need wigs & all that [most of you have heard of this before] .. and I'm really considering cutting my hair. But im such a wimp! :( hehe Well... we'll see how spontanious and tired I am. lol I've been trying to decide for the last few weeks. I remember last year Im like "uh... i'll do it next year". But now.. i dont really wanna cut my hair cuz of MB season comin up and i know how annoying short hair will be [+ i havnt had short hair in like... 10 years!] so im like.. i'll do it next year.. but by then i'll be going to collage soon and that will have MB too and i wont be used to my short-haired-ness.. so i'd probably look like a dupa not knowing what to do with it hehe. Well.. i duno. This is a really boring entree.. but @ least there isnt so much drama and crap. I just want this year to be OVER! [so marching band can start ;) ]
SeaFoamGreen87: you know what im doing right now?
SeaFoamGreen87: How To Look Like A Ninja
SeaFoamGreen87: and laughing my ASS OFF
Daystar85: i've just seen the title and i'm laughing
SeaFoamGreen87: hahahahah
Daystar85: werent we gonna do this when we were gonna go TPin?
SeaFoamGreen87: yea
SeaFoamGreen87: i did for a while
SeaFoamGreen87: then i got really hot SeaFoamGreen87: hehehe
Sunday, May 16, 2004
Not Too Exciting [finally]
Well things did get worse from there. My friends were mad at me. But I think we are o.k now.. i hope.
In the last like two weeks I have been online about a totaly of 30 minutes. haha
Today I went rollerblading in New Lenox because it is BEAUTIFUL weather. I was right by where my new house is going to be. It was really nice out there... with the birds and the trees.. and the sweating, and pulse/breathing goin, and the middle aged people trying to lose weight. haha. I got a lil' pink on my cheeks [sun burn? ugh]. its a really nice area. I went into Frankfort and stopped at this.. square thing. I bought a bottle of water and a muffin there and sat, drinkin & eatin. it was nice. I got home, ate dinner, then had to run out to get a book 4 school and one not 4 school hehe. Thats because I finished the 2nd book of the dark tower series [stephen king] so i had to buy the next one otherwise i'd start reading another book and never finish the series [ADD?]. well, im excited! hehe.. Hey! what else am i gonna do while i'm grounded? haha
I watched The Last Samuri last night... gooood movie. i suggest it. I also suggest american beauty... i watched that a few weeks ago. Bryan saw Troy friday night & my friends who happen to be girls [girlfriends] saw Mean Girls. [i said 'girls' way soo much in that sentence] Bryan saw it like a week ago and Cindy saw it Thursday i think. I wanted to see that! :o( but im grounded & i was working friday so i cant really complain. & i was working all the other days my friends were going, or my mum wouldnt let me go out to lansing. O well. I'll just watch it when it comes out for rent. hopfully lol. iono [i dont like using that, but its the slur that im trying to get across.. ok im done] im pretty lazy. :P haha
Well I'm gonna go watch Cheap By The Dozen w/ my family.
FYI - I'm grounded until... the 24th.. but ppl can come over &\or call me or whatever :D
Alright... I'l talk to you losers that read this boring crap later. Tat!
[[The Postal Service. What a strange... yet quiet amusing band! Hmm.. indeed interesting]]
Tuesday, May 11, 2004
These last few weeks have not been good. I have been crappy.. and I just started to think I was getting over all of it.
The last few days have been really... not good. You might know what I'm talking about .. and if you don't... be happy that you don't.
I have made many choices in my life... but the last few days seem to top them all.
Lets just say that I finally said goodbye to Noel (for real this time), and I'm grounded for two weeks.. again.
Well, good thing is ... things can only get better from here, right?
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"Gray would be the color.. if I had a heart"
"Die young and save yourself"
"And she whispers into the mirror...(I'm broken)"
"You don't see me at all"
"We don't want the loonies taking over"
"You say you read me like a book but the pages are all torn and frayed"
"Sometimes all I really wanna feel is love, sometimes I'm angry that I feel so angry. Sometimes my feelings get in the way, of what I feel I really needed to say"
"We're just blind pilots, in strange planes. Back seat drivers, in dead cars"
"Counting bodies like sheep (go back to sleep) to the rhythm of the war drums
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"I wake up and think dreams are real,
I sleep so I don't have to feel"
"I'm just tired of counting bodies, is this mausoleum tardy? Let's just paint you a pretty face"
"You are no good. Cause I know you can`t sleep, til you know your overbearance makes me creep"
"Your the good things. Yeah thats you, yeah thats you, yeah.
"No matter what we say, no matter what we think, we will never, will never leave this room. What are we going to do about this?"
"When I go forwards, you go backwards, somewhere we will meet"
"Tell all the boys and girls from school, to keep breaking all the rules, to let their parents know their anger"
"Squirming through cuts in a throat. Cut it! Cut it!"
"Cut out my eyes to spite my heart, wish for sleep but never stopping, assignments pile up. "
"Any fool can easy pick a hole. I only wish I could fall in"
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me paralyzed, love. Leave me hypnotized, love."
"Dancing on the corpses' ashes"
"Here I am expecting just a little bit, too much from the wounded. But I see through it all and see you."
"Now we're all the terminal cases, but were so determined to thrive. And those with defeat on their faces,
are those that we must keep alive"
"Chemicals will hit you. Chemicals will knock you down"
"Gaze into her killing jar I'd sometimes stare for hours. She even poked the holes so I can breath."
"So I threw you the obvious, to see what occurs behind the eyes of a fallen angel, eyes of a tragedy. Oh well. Apparently nothing. You don't see me. You don't see me at all."
"Do you remember that when we met you told me this gets harder, well it did."
"I'm gonna go to sleep
Let this wash all over me"
"A million nights in my silent room. I wanna learn all the right words I never knew. The saddest things I put you through. I got to hold you soon I'm asking you."
"Without you, everything falls apart. Without you, it's not as much fun to pick up the pieces."
"I'm comfortable apart, it's all written on my chart, and I take what's given me most cooperatively. I do what people say and lie in bed all day, absolutely horrified, I hope you're satisfied."
"She ate me up for breakfast, she screwed me in a vice. But now I don't know why I feel so tongue-tied"
Stuff I like:
90 Day Men
A Perfect Circle
Alkaline Trio
Anathallo
Armor For Sleep
At The Drive-In
Audiovent
Barry Manilow
Bear vs Shark
Blink-182 [the newer cd]
Brand New
The Bravery
Brazil
Bright Eyes
Broken Social Scene
Cake
Cave In
Coheed and Cambria
Coldplay
John Coltrane
Cursive
Miles Davis
Deftones
Dream Theater
Dresden Dolls
Duke Ellington
The Early November
Elliot Smith
The Faint
Fog
From Autumn to Ashes
Further Seems Forever
Gerry Mulligan
Gladiator soundtrack
Glassjaw
Godspeed You Black Emperor
Goo Goo Dolls
Heartland Jazz Orchestra
David Holsinger
Gustav Holst
Incubus
Interpol
The Junior Varsity
Ken Burns Jazz
Kenna
Kenny Garrett
Theodore Kerkezos
The Killers
Luca Brasi
Mars Volta
Modest Mouse
Mr.Bungle
Mum
Murder By Death
Muse
My Chemical Romance
Nine Inch Nails
Norah Jones
The Notwist
Oasis
Offspring (old)
Opeth
OSI
Perfect Circle
Pinback
Psapp
Q And Not U
Radiohead
Sahara Hotnights
Sevendust
Sėgur Ros
Smashing Pumpkins
Spoon
The Stills
The Strokes
Taking Back Sunday>br>Tenacious D
Thrice
Thursday
Tool
Tori Amos
The Unicorns
Yeah Yeah Yeahs
"Listen, strange women lying in ponds distributing swords is no basis for a system of government. Supreme executive power derives from a mandate from the masses, not from some farcical aquatic ceremony."
~Monty Python and The Holy Grail
"This is the one thing we must not say. A man who was merely a man and said the sort of things Jesus said would not be a great moral teacher. He would either be a lunatic-on a level with the man who says he is a poached egg-or else he would be the Devil of Hell. You must make your choice. Either this man was, and is, the Son of God: or else a madman or something worse.
~ C.S. Lewis
Gigging Proverb: The more you drink, the less we stink!!
"If you want to keep a friend, never criticize his family, religion, politics, or intonation."
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